Are You Ready?
Just seen the doctor last thursday, all blood results are back. Most of them is ok, in fact all except 1, glucose test. The post 2 hours glucose test is higher. Though not significantly higher but doctor say is “Impaired Diabetes”, not diabetes but just impaired. He said need to keep a close watch when I am pregnant on the glucose level as diabetes can cause miscarriage too. Another potential problem because especially when I pregnant, my highly desire carving is sweet drink. Drink like ribena that I don’t normally drink because I find it too sweet, when pregnant, they are just so desirable. So he said all is set and ready, I can go ahead and try naturally anytime. It makes me wonder are we on the wrong direction all this while? Maybe is the glucose level that is causing the problem, not the cervix? That might explains why the stitch doesn’t work? Then again, he said might or might not stitch for next pregnancy, to determine later since both pregnancies, either stitch or no stitch didn’t help. Headache, sounds like back to square one. Ultra confused and don’t know what to do.
Last friday, my friend asked me, “Are you ready?” A simple question yet I find it hard to answer. The expected lost of freedom, can’t drive, can’t even go out, can’t get to eat certain food, the same routine all days, 24/7. It does really get to me, to the extent I really feel no quality of life. A few days ago, God is telling me to slow down, now today He is telling me this. God is good! Slowing down does not mean to give up, neither does it mean to give in to sins. It is just simply means resting in Him and persevere.
Hebrews 12:1-4 (NIV)
12 Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, 2 fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. 3 Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart. 4 In your struggle against sin, you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding your blood.